I’m jealous they get to do this all day.
He told me about it today…,And he’s having an issue because she’s 35 (He’s 32.)
He said because of her age he feels pressure to jump into a relationship because she only has 2-3 years left for kids (according to his mind?).
He thinks he needs to call it off soon because she is getting attached and he doesn’t want to be breaking hearts. (LoL)
I kinda had no response to this “male insight” because I was thinking- wow it must be awesome to be a guy & think just because a woman is single & 35…she clearly wants to get married ASAP. I mean she probably already has the wedding plans made with only 2 years of youth to spare. Is this how guys think for real?
Also…kinda jealous he’s on his second girl he’s dating and I haven’t even found a guy to take me out….twice!
I want a job that doesn’t constantly require me to make “deals” with myself.
Example…after an all day meeting & the realization that I still have a full day of work to do….I then make a deal (with myself) - If I go to bed at 9pm because I am so tired, I can get up at 4am and start working before the next set of meetings start.
But then 4am comes….I am always - why didn’t I just stay up and power through? And then I get stressed because I don’t finish what I need to do….and after today’s all day meeting marathon I am basically going to repeat the same deal with myself tonight.
So basically ‘when I grow up’ I want a job where I can have actual times set for sleep and work.
I had a 5 hour meeting today…and then an 8am meeting tomorrow in the city so I booked a hotel room on Mulberry Street tonight.
Luckily I am right next to Little Italy…so in addition to my glutenous homemade pasta dinner I also picked up a fabulous chocolate cannoli for dessert.
CLEARLY…I am dieting guys. (but I did do 14,000 steps today…)
I’m all moved out of my apartment & all my crap is in storage….my brother made a “kitchenette” in my storage space.
I decided…FUCK BEING FAT.
I’m so over it. I wasted my 20s yoyo dieting & always fluctuating in weight.
I’m 30…it’s not going to get easier & I need to get this under control. I want my confidence back…I want to date…I want to be excited to clothes shop again.
So here we go…last night I bought some new bright colored nikes & a hot orange shirt…today I walked nearly 4 miles. (My foot I dropped the suitcase on did NOT love that)
Hopefully in the next month I’m at my moms I can get motivated & stay on track now that I can’t delivery.com every meal.